THE CONTRACT 

The world has things on credit and there is nothing known as "forever" . There is always an expiry date to everything . Nothing can be tagged eternal ,nothing at all . I have been wrong all this while about people and at times about my self . Looking for the light in the room that only adorned darkness my sights were indeed blurred. I had always thought that things have different perceptions and that one should always see the brighter side , I do carry it today also. But it was time for me to realize that not everything has different angles for analysis , some are just subtle and plain , "they are either good or bad ", nothing called as better ! . I have always wondered that things I received was meant only for me , selfish desires always prevail. But soon this misconception too was overthrown . Things and people that came across were "too good to share" or say they were never mine . And everything now seem so momentary . If it was there to be forever ,insecurities would not have space. To wear a smile even when you know how hard it is , is an art . Some say I can master it " a bit better than others'' . I wish I could say " I am not glad" . The question is ,for how long ?  I am proud for what I have been all this while . They say, people change , I change , You change , We all change . But what stands stubborn are circumstances and instances. They seem repeating all the time with me , the same results , #defeat . I just ponder hard that if anything I have been bestowed   do they have a limited time and existence in my life? THEY JUST DON'T STAY !  Some leave me petrified , some just leave me awestruck (not because they are that pleasing , but rather a shock) , other shatter off the confidence to leave me timid and helpless. These abstracts like LOVE, KINDNESS, LOYALTY just seem so bleak now to me , I don't say I do not believe they do exist , but just lacks expression .

Right from the streams to the channels and tributaries of ones life , I had them all just on a contract .

Some documented , 17 years , some 13 , and some could not survive more than 2 years .

I am 17 years 6 months and 5 days old .