CELESTIAL LOVE 

The very less known fact to many  ,about me is that I LOVE STARS !

I have always been so inquisitive to know all about them and now  day by day the curiosity increases. What I wish now is just to get time to sit with someone or my fav loneliness and stare at these stars all night together . They make me feel free and the irresistible warmth they give evokes the love I longed for  . They personify more that one could just think about as a source of light . They are the most beautiful sight which I have cherished since my child hood . To stare at them is still the best time pass for me . Those moments of isolation where I try finding reason to smile and laugh I look up and "stars" . Like a small toddler who gets astonished and confused by each piece of amazement he crawls by I look at these stars . They help me forget the past and to stop cribbing about the future . Watching them is like a time travel that revives my senses . They don't pour down tears nor to they question me , they don't judge me when I say irrelevant and irrational things. I stare and they stare back to me . They give me the same love I give them . They know my worth and they acknowledge me . From the romantic scenes of bollywood to the stupid thoughts that wander in my mind find solace in their viewing . To escape from this ruthless and disregarded world I live in, they are my rope . 

They are uncanny to give me the feeling that someone like me also finds happiness in watching them and one day together will we admire and cherish !

PLACID 

To resist her when it was all open to him 

To stop himself to be amazed

To make himself bow down and think his next step

To not disrespect her 

To get her without perfection 

To not live within a superficial conception

It will not always be easy 

You have to think beyond the belly 

You have to see the naked soul 

It has to be penetrated through the naked body of her's

This move has to be dauntless

This act has to be holy

She is credited to you 

Think not what she has to show to you 

Invade what she has hidden in  her self

Why do you search for light ?

Why do you not dwell with her in that darkness ?

This ignorance of your's kills her within

Why not save her than trying to feel her skin?

They don't tell you how much she is hurt.

Your stare matters than your judgements 

To think about joy , you never thought the curse 

To count for dollars, hold her before that 

So you could be counting STARS 

She will wait , will you ?

I just wonder if she was really the person I knew or was there something I still had to discover . "A complete novice " I called her all the time but she amazed me . To me she was someone I could just relate every bit of myself . But that time all my perceptions faded away, She was not I thought her to be . She was not an immature stupid boisterous known friend of mine , She was someone different . Those eyes which once had nothing to search for because they never felt incomplete , stood in that wide corridor looking for something that was yet to be called her's . To meet her everyday was his only way to express how important she would now be to him . But as I mentioned "novice" , YES she was. Those stares lacked much expression not by him but for her. She had something else in mind. She never realised HE read them already . I was still unknown to all that happened right before my eyes . But one has to understand the #wit behind #ignorance ,  #words  disguised as #silence . And then the known yet unknown description of those scenes début came beautifully on the screen and I applauded for it . For not I was the only one who certified about its ingenuity . SHE WAS HAPPY , HE WAS RESCUED . 

I repeat " she was a novice" . I know she was the same . She still amazed me not because she came out in an extraordinary way to present herself to me . But because she did not lose herself to him . But the boat they both were to row together needed a change . To what he read of her's he wanted to change , not guide her thoughts but make her believe in his . There was still that gap he felt and the failure to fill it up soon crept in . She never realised it was not about romanticizing her belief , it was a tough way to go . He sensed it soon , to make a decision was important now for She was not yet ready is what HE thought , but no one knew better than they about each other :D . So came the most unexpected "pause" . This is what amazed me because I just realized I had something much more to discover and I had a part to play for her and him . 

She was the same yet so different , So simple but so intricate , So defining yet so misunderstood , So known yet a stranger, So happy but with unseen tear . 

They know each other better than they could about themselves . SHE and HE are friends to WAIT ! She will , She has been , She is . 

But she is asking WILL YOU TOO ?

SHE IS NO MORE A " NOVICE" !

This Page, That Year 

That day, when life just took its uninformed and destructive turn . I stood there gazing to those moments that would hence forth reflect in my memories. There was decision to be taken, promises to be made , responsibilities to be shouldered . I was to make myself or break myself . I did realize that I was going under a change . This change would not alone affect me but the lives I now was accountable to . Living a carefree and less paid life , It was time for a revitalization . I however realised that everything WE hope for is not that is there in the "PLAN" . The confidence thrashed by circumstances, demeanour lost to difficulty and came the blue waters with the hallucinating waves . All that I possessed just seem to lose the strings once attached to me and was supposed to stay . But as truth triumphed over fantasy and immaturity , realities became unbearable . This turned life topsy turvy , to find my self stuck in that awful middle position where options seemed more like a dreadful attempt to save oneself. To over think became a regular habit , expectations reached their peak . It seemed that I wished if stones could speak and trees answered queries ,that anyone would just help me escape this grounding situations which soon was to steal the precious things I once acclaimed pride about . 

Yet one has to realize that there is always a rainbow after a heavy rain , a saviour in the sea of pain